 |
| The room where my new beginning started - layed off and free from constraints - FREEK OUT |
January 29th 2013 I was
layed off from Disney. This was not the first time but i know it will be
my last because i will never allow myself to be sucked into that again. I
wouldn't change a thing except for perhaps the length of time i was there but
it was an amazing adventure.
But now it's time to bring
to life the dream i've had for so long. as the years have passed and i've
raised my babies to 7 and 10 i've become more and more aware of who i am and
what i want to do. i've been looking for a way to merge all of my
interests and make waking up to a new day be something other that sluffing
along to the beeline and blindly creating art for yet another video or online
game. Good lord i was ready and the universe made sure i will now listen
to my voice.
Now i'm not saying i
wasn't extremely proud and honored to work for Disney for 18 years. the
biggest loss i feel is the the daily mingling with the amazing people i got to
work alongside. that's what it affords you. you get to create and
learn next to some amazing talent, good lord when i think of it. But
problem was i couldn't even enjoy that any longer. i was creatively dead.
that happens when you become more fully you and realize why you're here
on this earth, hear the call and then ignore it.
I am a very busy mom.
For the past 10 years or so i've been the main breadwinner and mom to my
2 kids. Nough said right? i know there are women who do even more
but for ME, this was too much to leave much room for creating art. i did
manage to create but mostly when i would take a vacation or a class and then
sporadically on a weekend. But then my family got largely ignored.
and then there was the creative needs of my husband, it seemed we were
both always needing more creative time than there simply was time for.
And so here i am, no more
full time job and the rest of my life before me. And there's this blog.
i will now come here to post about my experience along this new road.
and how i will find my way.
i have a huge idea and it
perfectly melds all of my interests together. i am terrified to execute
it and so it makes perfect sense to me to simply write down all of my
frustrations and struggles right here as i face my task.
Today: it is a beautiful Sunday and there are 3 very loud kids
playing in the next room with my husband. i have a birthday party to plan
for the next weekend and a full time freelance job to work on with the husband
all week.
My first step is already started but I need a plan to make sure it
happens little…by…little.
No comments:
Post a Comment