|The room where my new beginning started - layed off and free from constraints - FREEK OUT|
January 29th 2013 I was layed off from Disney. This was not the first time but i know it will be my last because i will never allow myself to be sucked into that again. I wouldn't change a thing except for perhaps the length of time i was there but it was an amazing adventure.
But now it's time to bring to life the dream i've had for so long. as the years have passed and i've raised my babies to 7 and 10 i've become more and more aware of who i am and what i want to do. i've been looking for a way to merge all of my interests and make waking up to a new day be something other that sluffing along to the beeline and blindly creating art for yet another video or online game. Good lord i was ready and the universe made sure i will now listen to my voice.
Now i'm not saying i wasn't extremely proud and honored to work for Disney for 18 years. the biggest loss i feel is the the daily mingling with the amazing people i got to work alongside. that's what it affords you. you get to create and learn next to some amazing talent, good lord when i think of it. But problem was i couldn't even enjoy that any longer. i was creatively dead. that happens when you become more fully you and realize why you're here on this earth, hear the call and then ignore it.
I am a very busy mom. For the past 10 years or so i've been the main breadwinner and mom to my 2 kids. Nough said right? i know there are women who do even more but for ME, this was too much to leave much room for creating art. i did manage to create but mostly when i would take a vacation or a class and then sporadically on a weekend. But then my family got largely ignored. and then there was the creative needs of my husband, it seemed we were both always needing more creative time than there simply was time for.
And so here i am, no more full time job and the rest of my life before me. And there's this blog. i will now come here to post about my experience along this new road. and how i will find my way.
i have a huge idea and it perfectly melds all of my interests together. i am terrified to execute it and so it makes perfect sense to me to simply write down all of my frustrations and struggles right here as i face my task.
Today: it is a beautiful Sunday and there are 3 very loud kids playing in the next room with my husband. i have a birthday party to plan for the next weekend and a full time freelance job to work on with the husband all week.
My first step is already started but I need a plan to make sure it happens little…by…little.